rowdy day..

today i'm feeling rather, lazy, tired, emoti0nless, angry, pissy, happy, lovey, ... to simplify things... I'm feeling WEIRD.

have you ever felt like you want to do something but you are too lazy to do it. but yet you still do it?

have you ever felt like you don't like something that is happening but yet you still let that thing happen because you are too emotionless to act on it?

have you ever felt like you treat someone really bad when he/she was just trying to be nice to you, but because you are too tired to entertain that person?

Have you ever wondered what things would be like if you did not say the things you shouldn't have said at the first place around people you love?


the thing is, life is always filled with a blunder of emotions,

today in particular, i would say is the first time I'm feeling this... USUALLY I'd be boiling mad, things that i didn't like happening. but today... i reacted very differently.. It's as if i evolved... I became a less emotional person that i once was. Or maybe it just happens to be the wrong day in the cycle that caused me to react like that..

In conclusion, i should just get back to studying and stop day dreaming and thinking....

i wish you were here with me...